Stuff

As some of you know, my biological dad came to town last week. We were talking in October and he told us he wanted to come out in March. Thats fine, that would give me time to build more of a relationship and stuff. Well I sent him some pix of Hannah from my phone, and he was like the more and more I see pix, the more I want to come out! I think I'll come out in December!! I was like.... OMG. I couldn't believe he wanted to come out sooner. I was freaking out, but thought maybe he would back out. Nope! He finally pinned down the days he was coming and asked about hotels and such. Thats when I started getting really nervous. I had to totally scrub the apt, get organized and figure out what the heck we were gonna do the whole time he was here!  It was only going to be 3 days, (2 half days and 2 full days) but still! Its CG. I asked him what he had in mind, and he said just talk and hang out. UGH.. I know I can talk for days, but I've also have known you guys for like YEARS!!!!!!!! Months..... plus lots of touchy subjects .... it was gonna be akward.

So its Saturday. Day before he comes. I'm literally sick to my stomach. I can't eat, I just hurt and want to throw up. I text Sergio to ask when his flight was coming in so we could plan on meeting up for dinner. He tells me he's landing @4:30pm. So can meet around 6 for dinner. I then confess to him I had been so nervous that I couldn't eat. He was going through the same thing! That made me feel a little better. I wasn't over-reacting. I'm glad I had Adam. He was trying his hardest to keep me calm.

So Sunday rolls around. I'm really anxious. What if we don't get along and its a complete waste of time? Or that he likes Adam and Hannah and hates me?! All things thoughts are going through my head. I'm pretty much freaking out. Well at 4:30pm, Sergio txts me and tells me he landed and that he's getting his rental and he will be on his way. EEEK! 5:30, he calls Adam and asks for directions. He got off on the wrong exit. lol So Adam tells him where to go and tells him we will meet him @ 6pm. I tell Adam I want to get there a little early so I can try to calm down. I keep staring at the door to see if he's coming. Adam tells me to calm down. I actually missed him when he came in. He was actually by our table and we missed each other. Finally he goes back up front and I see him. He didn't look like how I planned. I have pictures of him, but he didn't have facial hair and it threw me off. He comes over and he shakes Adam's hand, we give each other an akward hug and Hannah completely shuns him. She wanted nothing to do with him. If he looked at her, she would bury her face into my arm. (That worried me) We start talking and I told him I didn't reconize him b/c he didn't have facial hair. He said he shaved it b/c he didn't want to scare Hannah. (Adam has a full beard) we laughed. The convo was good. Nice and smooth. He came back to the apt w/us and watched some football stuff. (By this time, Hannah had completely warmed up to him and was laughing and playing).

Monday.... we go to the "mall". Adam has to work a 3hr shift so we planned on eating breakfast and walking the mall. And we literally did. Walked that WHOLE OUTLET MALL!!!!!!! UGH! Never again. But he wanted to see what was out there and I think spy on what I might want for Christmas. He says he wants to go to the bank and get some cash. Then we go to Wal-Mart. He comes back and gives me a bag. It has gift cards in it...... Lets just say it was WAY TOO MUCH. But I'm very thankful! He told me I had to spend it on us. Not bills. To spoil ourselves. And we did. He was very generous. Adam gets off work and we hang out. (I actually can't remember) but when we went to dinner we decided we wanted to go to the casino. Mom took Hannah for the night and we went to Wild Horse Pass. They totally redid it and its AMAZING!!!!!!  Here is a pic of Adam and I there.

It was nice to get away from CG and not have to worry about Hannah. Don't get me wrong, I love that kid, but Mommy needs a break sometime! We ate dessert and talked some more. Adam and him have lots in common. They both love sports! But funny thing is, If Adam loves a team, Sergio loves the rival. So it was kinda funny to hear them talk about sports! Sergio even bought Hannah a jersey... for the 49ners. Hannah screamed and demanded it off (I kid you not!) so we will be taking it back and getting the PROPER jersey! (GO CARDS!)

Tuesday was just us. We did a little more shopping and then hung out at the apartment. He left around 5 and never came back. He wanted to watch football. I had a little freak-out moment thinking he hated me and didn't want to hang w/me unless Adam was there..... I was crying and being a baby. (Come to find out I was starting my period after not having it for like 4 months.) So when Adam came home I was a wreck. I really didn't know what was instore for the next day.

Wednesday went better. He came over and we actually talked about lots of stuff. Had a total break through. I got some questions answered and so did he. He left on a good note. The whole experience was to see if this was really something we both wanted. The last day really confirmed that we both wanted each other in our lives and we were both ready to make it work. I'm glad he came down.  Like 5 mins after he left LINDSAY CAME OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so glad to see her! I miss her tons! Sometimes she is the missing piece I need to make me feel better. We've been through so much together that I just can't imagine not having her in my life. She is truely my best friend and my sister from another mister! Not too long after Linds comes over.... KRISTEN CAME OVER!!!!!!!!! My other best friend. Kristen and I didn't become close friends till after High School. But over the years we have become really close. She was even my "maid of honor" at my wedding. I'm finally at the poing where I feel comfortable to talk to Kristen about anything. Which I can only do w/a handful of people. Its nice to have someone I can talk to who knows when to listen and let me vent and knows when to say (and when not to say) stuff. May not make sense to you, but it makes sense to me! Linds couldn't stay long, but that was ok, Kristen ended up staying for a couple hours and we just talked away. It was just what I needed.