I need to vent!

I'm just so frustrated right now. Every time somone calls me the first thing they say is, "Are you ok?" Yes... I'm sorry I didn't answer the phone all chipper when you called. Either you call me way too much and its just annonying or I'm just in a whatever mood. It makes me mad when you feel you always have to ask me if I'm ok. If I'm not, I'll let you know. But don't take it all personal when I get upset and tell you for the billionth time that I'm fine and I'm sick of always hearing that. Its just retarded. Hannah has been a pill the last couple days. She's really testing me. She isn't listening and is doing stuff that she could get really hurt. (Like trying to climb her dresser to mess with her tv) She is in destructive mode right now and I'm at my wits end. I actually broke down and cried today. She was like, "Mommy, you're crying." I told her, "Yes I am b/c you are destroying your room and not listening to me when I really need you to." She asked me if I was mad and I told her I was very mad and the only way I could calm down was crying. She then started to cry too. I know she loves me but sometimes she makes me feel like a bad mom. I feel like I'm punishing her more than loving her. But she needs to learn. She can't do whatever she wants. Thats not how it works. I'm also stressing about money. I had to re-apply for unemployment. If I don't get it, I don't know whats going to happen. Money was tight as it is anyways... but to take that away... it would really mess us up. There are NO jobs unless you have a degree or can do hard labor. Even part time jobs are sucking!!! Anyways. I needed to vent in a place were someone couldn't read. I don't need them thinking it is about them and making me feel guitly for my feelings. Does that make sense? I don't need a lecture from them. I just want to vent and be done. I hate when people feel they need to put their 2cents in on every little thing in my life. I know you care, but shut up for once and just listen! (That sounds really mean but I don't care!)