Drama Rama

When I can focus and be calm, I will go into greater detail. A lot has happened from when I last wrote. But lets just say, no longer on speaking terms w/an in-law. Sad but she did it to herself! So I will be adding stuff stuff from when they happened. I will write a blog when I'm done w/the dates of the posts that I added.

I'm lost

I am so lost right now. What is my purpose? Do I even matter? I seem to fail at everything. I stress my family out, I'm not working, I don't clean. All I seem to do is yell, scream, crochet and cry. I hate me so much right now. I hate what I am and what I've become. I use to be happy. I use to smile and mean it. I've been lying for so long that I don't even know how to be happy any more. I need to be on my meds, I need to eat better, I need to exercise, I need to loose like 150lbs. (no joke) but will all that make me happy? Or will I still be broken? Why do people put up w/me? I just seem to make everyone upset or disappointed.

why bother

Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little

How is this for little? I'm 2 and 1/2 weeks old! This is me and my Aunt Samantha. She's 2 and a 1/2. Aww so sweet. This was 27 yrs ago. CRAZY!